vickygoestravelling

my journey to health and well being via exotic destinations

in which we make a decision

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A phone call yesterday bump starts me out of my holding pattern. ‘Professor Thomas has reviewed your scans and says there are no surprises, but can you come and see him tomorrow morning?’

I can’t help but wonder why (that sick feeling again, I said it would be the first of many last time); my instinct tells me there is a need for further discussion. The rest of the day passes in a blur of friends, a haze of chocolates, flowers and gifts, not to mention several glasses of fizz.

This morning Ross arrives at 6am, from Singapore, and we go together to the appointment.

My sixth sense is right: there is a discussion. The lovely oncologist Dr Miah and the Prof are now recommending that we consider 6 weeks of radiotherapy, followed by 6 weeks recovery, then the surgery to remove the tumour.

On cross-examination it appears the only benefit of this approach is that my leg will receive less radiation and to a smaller area.  If I have the op first, they will have to irradiate the whole area around the incision, probably the length of my calf. (The diagram here shows the soleus and the gastrocnemius muscles.)

The tumour sits across both these muscles

The tumour sits across both these muscles

The purpose is not therefore to shrink the tumour to make it easier to operate: the Prof says it makes little difference to his surgery; and indeed there is no guarantee that radiotherapy works on my kind of tumour.

For me it’s a no brainer: I really don’t think I can take this pain for another three months, nor live with the anxiety of hosting my tumour, which might spread in the interim, especially if the radiotherapy doesn’t work. I also need to capitalise on my current levels of positivity, which might get worn down with such a distant objective. My recovery will, in the end, all be down to this.

The Prof understands my thinking completely, as does Dr Miah. The pain factor cannot be underestimated. It’s a deal! And of course, it may just mean I can escape to Switzerland for Christmas and New Year, although skiing is  along way off (even walking is going to be difficult for a long time). It’s about things to look forward to….

Also my other surgeon, Prof Khong, who has been in touch, favours immediate surgery.  I am still revelling the comparison to Helen Mirren – what do you think? Perhaps it’s more about indomitable spirit rather than physical resemblance. Don’t forget she was in her 40s in this photo and I am now 56! Mind you I think I look pretty grim!

Carpe diem does mean seize the day after all, so that day is now Friday, and after that the only way is up…

LOOKALIKE (apologies to Private Eye)

Helen Mirren............Vicky Unwin (shurely shome mishtake)

Helen Mirren………………………………………………….Vicky Unwin (shurely shome mishtake?)

Administrative notes: I will be in the Royal LISTER Hopsital on Chelsea bridge Road at least until Monday; please don’t just pop in unannounced but contact Ross on 07831361190 as he will be my gatekeeper

Author: vickyunwin

I am a writer and traveller. Our darling daughter Louise died on 2 March 2011, aged 21 (www.louisecattell.com) and I started writing as therapy. We never know how long we have on this earth, so I live for every day...in November 2013 I was diagnosed and operated on for a malignant soft tissue sarcoma in the calf, followed by 6.5 weeks of radiotherapy, so am embarking on a different kind of journey which you can follow here. I also have another site www.healthylivingwithcancer.co with my blueprint for health and well-being. My husband works in Switzerland so we flit from place to place anywhere else that takes our fancy

7 thoughts on “in which we make a decision

  1. Hi Vicky – agree with you it’s a no-brainier – get the op out of the way, hopefully reduce the pain and then focus on recovery – much better psychologically than having prospect of op in couple of months time – will be thinking of you on Friday evening and looking forward to first post-op blog – big love and hugs from Capetown xxxxxx

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  2. Stay strong Vicky. I’m thinking of you and the dancing we’ll do once this is all sorted. x

  3. Remove the invader immediately! I can’t imagine why they want to leave something in there that is growing that rapidly.I agree totally that half of fighting this is how positive you can remain in the face of it. Keep that sparkle in those fiercely blue eyes of yours. JP xxx

  4. Up is the only way to go and it won’t be first class that’s for sure but you are strong and what’s more determined, so just keep being you. Lots of positive and supportive thoughts flying your way…..hugs. A.

  5. Its all in the long elegant neckline and pretty mouth…:)

  6. It’s Friday night and all I can think about is how you are getting on……. Times like this are unbearably difficult but with the magnificent Ross and Tommy by your side, you’ll be so well supported that you will fly through the bloody op.Think of it as a means to an end and if you need any fat tissue or muscle to graft onto your delicate limbs, I have much to spare. Sending you my love and wishing you all Irish luck for a speedy recovery. Roma xxx

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